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  1. OSUViking

    2020 Democratic Primary Race

    Also, I'm not sure why but a story about a Trump administration official admitting to the administration withholding $4 million from the 9/11 medical fund just totally fell under the radar. That's awful, more than likely entirely politically motivated, and would be a huge egg on his face. Not sure why they didn't pick that up.
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    2020 Democratic Primary Race

    I'm paranoid that the only way Trump leaves office is military coup. They've said they won't get involved to settle disputes. However, if the courts decide in favor of Biden, and Trump refuses to leave, I think it could come to that. My concern is what would happen to Trump after something like that. I hate the man but if they punished him, I could see mass violence from his QAnon cult following breaking out.
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    2020 Democratic Primary Race

    Is anyone else worried about a civil war this fall, or am I just being paranoid? I hope I'm just paranoid.
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    What's Good?

    First time back here in a while as well. Graduated from OSU last May, and will be starting a job with Epic Systems in Wisconsin in a few weeks.
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    Last TV Show You Watched?

    Stranger Things Season 3. I thought it was a good recovery from the (IMO) dumpster fire that was Season 2, but thought that it followed the same trend as the first two seasons where it got weaker as the season went on. I loved Billy's arc.
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    Mental Health Discussion

    Not sure where else to post this. It is related to the sobriety post in the good news thread but this in and of itself is not good news. More so observations. Being sober has exposed me to so much shit in my head that I've ignored since I was young. My relationship is terrifying and I love my girlfriend but quite frankly I get paranoid and it's hard without weed being there to mask it. I've no intention of harming myself but the image of ending my own life plays on repeat in my head basically every day. Around coworkers, when I'm alone, when I'm with my girlfriend, even around my doctors. No intention of following through. It's just an obsessive thought that pops up a lot and it's unpleasant at best. Paranoid thoughts are also nearly constant but not necessarily prominent. It's more so like they are always there, but I see them for what they are. The temptation to go down the paranoid rabbit hole is constant and somehow paranoia feels safer than trying to ground myself in reality. I've also taken some time to appreciate it takes some grit to make it through some of these things. I usually shy away from complimenting myself because I don't like coming off as egotistical. But most people would not be able to handle the types of thoughts I put up with on a daily basis, on top of recovering from substance abuse (I still have physical cravings for weed) and studying for a competitive degree. Life has been difficult but it's also made me resilient. I had someone on campus not so subtly say I had an easy life because I was middle class and a white male. I don't talk with them often but I wondered how long they'd be able to last if they had to put up with some of this shit.
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    The good news thread

    It's been 7+ months since I last got high. I've had periods where I almost slipped into replacing weed with alcohol but I've come a long way. I spent almost $1,500 on weed in about a year and that was only the Venmo transactions. Although it's positive progress, I still struggle reckoning with the people I pushed away while in that state. I missed a lot of growth and fucked some good situations up so I could get high. I never want to be in that state again, although life hasn't necessarily been easier without it. The actual start date of my sober streak was July 9, 2018. I sent an email to my ex apologizing for neglecting our relationship and her emotional needs for the sake of weed. I don't know if she even cared, but I was fucked up emotionally after sending it and wanted to smoke. Something in me stopped me from doing it and here I am now. Edit: I also accepted a job offer in Madison following graduation. It'll be in a technical support role for a software company. It'll be hard work but I've made it this far. Just have to make it through this semester and I'm finally done with school.
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    Handling Disrespect

    Disrespect is a bit of an issue for me, because I'm not a confrontational person. I grew up in an environment that had lots of passive aggressive interactions, and the ones that did spill over into outright confrontation (my dad being angry during a diabetic episode) were terrifying and have led to dissociation issues for me. So someone disrespecting me, I don't handle that well. I'd be just as likely to ignore it and continue on with my day than I would be to confront it. I will say, there have been a few instances at my job where a manager who was interested in my girlfriend disrespected me. I am fairly certain he wanted to assert authority over me to impress her and turn her away from me (obviously didn't work). I didn't know how to handle that and it made the whole situation uncomfortable. However, many people respect me at work. I'm hard working, I'm easy to talk to, I'm kind, and I'm willing to help people if they ask for it. People turn to me for help with stuff pretty often, especially the new people. So it's not often people will disrespect me because I don't put myself in many positions to have that happen to me. Even the person who is known by all of the managers and chefs to be insubordinate as hell, isn't like that with me. Still not a good worker, but he does what I ask of him. Respect begets respect. Those people who disrespect me though, they show their true colors. It really isn't hard to not be a piece of shit, which is why I think it reflects poorly on humanity and the society we've built that there are so many pieces of shit out there. I don't invest in them at all, and expect the bare minimum from them. I wouldn't call the aforementioned manager a piece of shit, but I was friends with him up until that point and haven't expected anything other than an entertaining conversation between the two of us since then. It's impossible to avoid disrespectful people, but I do my best to minimize the impact and presence they have in my life.
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    What Game Are You Currently Playing?

    I want to get AC Odyssey and RDR2 so badly but I don't want to completely stop talking to my girlfriend. Ok maybe there is a middle ground there but think I'll wait til break.
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    Trump Regime thread.

    I had a medication that had worked wonders for my psychosis supplied for free by a study that I was in. I was going to move to an injectable form in another study, but withdrew as I was having a lot of anxiety about that transition and wanted to stay on the oral. I also had some scheduling conflicts that were going to make it touchy even if I wanted to be in the study. I wanted to stay on that medication, as it had worked pretty well for almost two years at that point. I called the insurance to see whether it would be covered, and it wasn't. It was going to cost me like $300 a month just to get a 30-pill bottle. That's pathetic. I am not familiar with the healthcare or health insurance industries, but I refuse to believe there is any justification for why prices are so high or why shit is the way it is. My two hospital stays for mental health issues were 2-3 days, and each of them cost several thousand dollars. I had to go the first time no doubt; I was considering suicide to prevent the horrible thoughts I was having from becoming reality. I almost don't want to go to the hospital in the future because of the cost, not just because it's boring once I stabilize.
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    Trump Regime thread.

    No idea what the standards are for that competition or what a transgender athlete would have to go through to compete with other women, but if the lady who complained really did beat the transgender athlete that many times before, kind of sounds like she's just butthurt. The last tweet from the winner annoys me. That's what transphobia looks like? That looks more like a sore loser grasping for whatever straws she can to justify why she just lost. I really don't know much about this situation, but from what I read in that article it sounds like the 3rd place finisher is a sore loser. That being, shutting down the discussion of "where do transgender athletes belong in sports" because "transphobia" seems extreme. It's a discussion to have; that doesn't mean it has to lead to them being excluded from sports, but too many people won't even discuss these things because people get so butthurt about it. I'm curious, are there any cases of transgender athletes competing with other men? Legitimate question.
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    Trump Regime thread.

    I'm just gonna say it's irresponsible to throw around labels like that. People do it with Trump all the time, even professionals. The circumstances that lead to certain behaviors can stem from a lot of situations, and something like clinical narcissism is almost always a complex combination of genetics and attachment trauma. There's heightened narcissism all over the place but that's not what NPD (narcissistic personality disorder) is. I don't agree with blots' and his way of handling this situation, but I again think throwing around psychiatric labels in any situation outside of a professional diagnosing a client/patient under their care is irresponsible.
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    Trump Regime thread.

    I'm generally a proponent of considering biological factors because then we can understand where these tendencies come from. However, I didn't mean to address people who are more sexually adventurous in their youth. I mean assholes who see something (not someone) they want and make them uncomfortable when they can't get it, if not worse. That is definitely more common than people tend to think, though I'm also not trying to claim every guy is like that. (Personally, I tend to hate other guys in an abstract way because of my own insecurities and past, and don't see a practical reason to let go of that unless an individual shows me I'm wrong). There's a lot of emotional dysregulation that factors into sexual harassment and assault. Those things will never go away, but I think teaching people how to process emotions effectively and in a healthy manner in their youth could cut down on that behavior. That, and kids not growing up with ideas of what it means to be a man or woman. Let kids sort their identity out for themselves. Unfortunately that last one will never happen, it's too profitable to exploit the population's insecurities to spark consumerism. I also don't necessarily advocate for legislative change. I've made my stance clear before that I think a lot of societal issues are individual behavior problems on a mass scale, and they result from poorly handled emotions and poor development in their youth. I think more education into developmental and childhood attachment trauma could go a long way in helping to shape future generations to not be pieces of shit, regardless of their socioeconomic status, sex, race, etc.
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    Trump Regime thread.

    There are plenty of ways white women are advantaged; there are also plenty of ways they have a difficult time in life. Men can absolutely be raped and sexually assaulted by women, but it's not a close ratio. Men tend to be more aggressive for a variety of reasons and that plays into social/sexual encounters. I think that's more an individual, entitled asshole problem than it is some societal epidemic. There are societal messages at play but at the end of the day, I tend to think the beliefs people internalize about themselves from home plays a larger role than the messages from society. The two have a lot of overlap, but I think parents who actually encouraged a kid to reflect on their parents and think for themselves would produce a respectable guy who isn't a piece of shit. Same for girls. I'll tell you, after I started dating my girlfriend it was like I started seeing things a different way. She said that a lot of guys approach her at various points throughout the week, or on social media, and it makes her uncomfortable. I can see why. My own bias 100% seeps into this perspective, but I think there are a lot of fuck boys out there, some of which masquerade as nice guys and some who are just your stereotypical frat boy. I completely understand why a woman would feel afraid of men, and frankly I think at the very least sexual harassment is more common than many think. I am of the belief that the majority of privilege stems from socioeconomic background. Because of how different races were treated historically, the socioeconomic situation still has a lot of racial factors into it. There's still racism in today's society; probably not at the level it was 40 years ago, but it's still there. People project their fears onto other groups of people literally every day and minority demographics of all kinds are usually the ones that suffer. There are a lot of people in life who won't deal with as much as I do on a week-to-week basis because they don't have to analyze the details of an overly obsessive mind to make sure they won't have a psychotic episode during a test or during a busy shift at work. There are a lot of people who deal with shit I couldn't even fathom because of the socioeconomic background I come from. It's a complex situation. There are white people who are poor as shit and treated horribly by society, and rich black people who still face shit but by and large have an easy time in life. The fact that I'm a white dude with a middle class background is a huge advantage, as is the fact that I'm at least average or above-average intelligence.
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    Trump Regime thread.

    There are unquestionably advantages to certain lots in life, but it's way more complex than stuff like white privilege or male privilege. I have faced situations in life that were easier to navigate because I was a white guy, although I think the majority of my benefits came from a middle class socioeconomic background and growing up in a household with parents who insisted on paying for my college. I'm absolutely not privileged when it comes to mental health, I think that's a given. I've seen stupid shit like skinny people are "privileged" because they have better genetics, or that people who don't have legitimate gluten intolerance or dietary restrictions are privileged. That stuff makes my eyes roll into the back of my head. If I didn't literally fit the stereotype for a school shooter, I would kindly let people know they face advantages over me in almost every aspect of life by not having to deal with psychosis. Humans are so complex and there are so many factors that go into how difficult someone's life is. But people want to fit others into neatly packed boxes for their own agendas, it's ridiculous.
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    Trump Regime thread.

    This is worst case scenario lol. I think Hillary is a shitty human being, but Trump is worse. I'm beyond the point of thinking that either are worth voting for in any capacity. If the Dems actually push in Hillary again, I don't see how they would survive the election but maybe people are so stuck up their own asses on both sides that both parties would just entrench themselves even further. Definitely do not want Trump in again and I'll never vote for him, but the idea of Hillary being the nominee again isn't enticing at all either.
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    Trump Regime thread.

    It's an unfortunate reality that one's message needs to be marketable. That's not an option if you want people to genuinely reflect on their behaviors/motives/etc. There's a chef at my work that everyone hates, largely for good reason because he's all high and mighty about noticing things others don't. But a lot of the stuff he says is legitimate, and it's stuff more people need to recognize. But no one wants to listen to him because he's an asshole. I happen to be very patient and I'm a good listener, so I can see past all that and recognize we see eye to eye on many things. But he's an asshole, he doesn't care how people receive his ideas, and as such no one listens. Compare that to one of my mom's friends, who's been defiantly anti-homosexuality her whole life because of faith and shunned her daughter because of it. I had a discussion with her once, validated where she came from despite me disagreeing with it in literally every way, and explained things reasonably to her. "You can think homosexuality is a sin, but that's not your judgement according to your faith, it's God's, and you have no control. She's your daughter and has probably just wanted you to love her despite those differences". My mom said her friend reached out to thank me because she found the courage to speak to her daughter for the first time in years. Low-key feel like I'm just virtue signaling but that's the example I think of. Will it work for everyone? Fuck no, I know first hand there are some dumbasses on both sides of the aisle who just won't listen. But it's absolutely more effective than screaming how shitty someone is because of their ignorance or beliefs.
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    Trump Regime thread.

    All I've read about this is from people on both sides of the aisle virtue signaling on Quora. I find it remarkable that everyone on both sides (at least on Quora, I haven't kept up with it much in this thread) is absolutely convinced that they are 100% right and justified in their stance, and that both sides passionately play the role of victim. This is more like a soap opera than anything else. I have a hard time believing a woman would put herself on a platform like this with a false allegation but people on the left that I've read are so black and white about this issue. I still struggle to believe that people think calling those who disagree with them (or in this case say "innocent until proven guilty") bigots is productive at all. Edit: Like I said I don't pretend false accusations are common but I think this shit about women never lying about sexual assault is dumb. Statistically it's rare but when dealing with individual cases, to just throw our that possibility is absurd. I don't think we should inherently believe women but I also think sexual assault is serious enough to the point that these accusations should be heard and explored. I've seen people say there's no reason a woman would do that, that's idiotic. It's not a smart move but there are plenty of reasons. I suspect that Kavanaugh did it because he seems like a piece of shit and like I said I don't see this as a case where she'd put herself through this kind of shit storm for the sake of the Democratic party. I don't think there's very much evidence. If what I've read is true at all it's basically conservatives saying there's no evidence and thus the accusations can't be proven true, and liberals going with "gut instincts" (like in all honesty I am) in their "assessment" and saying he's a predator. Lmao, I saw some dude say his body language and facial expressions were what you'd expect of a sociopath, so clearly he did it. People like that are beyond idiotic and a prime example of the aforementioned virtue signaling I bitch about so frequently. I also think people are a lot more complex than specific moments in their life. This isn't me defending Kavanaugh, because I think I already said he seems like he's a piece of shit in real life, but more so that there's also an entire lifetime of experiences that form his identity. This is true of literally every human yet we live in a disgusting society where a metaphorical soundbyte of a person's life determines their character. If people judged me from how I was when I was abusing weed and psychotic as well (and they ACTUALLY knew who I was) they'd think I was a piece of shit yet everything else in my life reinforces I'm a morally ambiguous person that tends towards being decent. What really gets me is that I don't even think these people care. I don't think they care about Ford or Kavanaugh, or what this means for the country, I think they only see people they disagree with getting fired up and have to provide an equal and opposite force. I don't think people actually care about the MeToo movement which is unfortunate, I know some people who felt empowered by it to seek therapy to overcome that past. Seems more and more like people retweet and favorite and upvote stuff like that just so they come off as a good person on social media. It seems so fake to me. Rant over.
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    Everson Griffen in Hospital for Mental Health Reasons

    Can relate to the fear described here. It sounds like nonsense to most people but try to understand what it's like to have all of your thoughts and perceptions continuously reinforcing these terrifying narratives in your head. Everyone thinks they can trust their own judgement and take that ability for granted. Sounds like it's something psychotic but I'll wait to hear more.
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    2017-18 NBA Season Thread

    Just read that Jimmy Butler requested a trade. Not sure if it's true but in tandem with us signing (or potentially signing) Deng... I just don't understand Thibs. I don't think he's the coach for the Twolves and at this point I think they're going to need to nuke the core and start over. Hindsight is 20/20 but giving Wiggins a max contract was a massive mistake and one that will hold us back for years unless we find a way to get rid of it. Plus Thibs seems committed to not actually playing effective bench players. Thibs and Wiggins seem like weights holding the Twolves back from developing. They were never close to being contenders but I think those two exacerbate the difference.
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    Vikings @ Packers

    Didn't know Kendricks had a similar call.
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    Vikings @ Packers

    Cousins was almost perfect. INT was even his fault, just off the hands of Treadwell. The game is obviously different with a healthy Rodgers, but our special teams was the only reason this was a tie. GB only scored one TD on offense and we held them to 5 FGs, that should be enough to win but when our own ST can't put up points or actively concedes a TD, well it's just a good sign we even tied this game, bad call on Matthews or not.
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    Vikings @ Packers

    It was bullshit when they called something similar on Sheldon Richardson a week ago and it was bullshit here as well. NFL officiating is a joke. Nothing we can do about it and unfortunately it stole a win from GB.
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    Vikings @ Packers

    I would agree that Everson Griffen is overrated but I think Hunter has a great future. We did NOT tie because of our defense. This was 100% on our special teams. We left 9 points on the field from missed field goals and also surrendered an easy 7 because of a blocked punt. Edit: Originally said 12 points but I'm dumb it was only 3 FGs. It took our kicker missing that last OT field goal for me to realize that I have not been logged in on my phone for a while. Whoops. Offense looked awesome, defense looked like it stepped up when it needed to. I'm not sure what happened with Cousin's pick, or Treadwell, but the announcers were really dogging on Treadwell so I'm going to assume the two are related. The call on Clay Matthews was bogus but it is what it is. They're going to start calling that stuff which is annoying. I don't know how they expect players moving so quickly and through tight spaces like the pocket to control their weight when they are tackling someone. Dumb rule.
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